nazi goth.

so...not to be a major buzzkill every time i post but ive juuuuust about had it.
and i feel like talking about it.
i found a lump above my right breast.
just a month ago, a potentially dangerous cyst the size of a watermelon was surgicaly removed from my body.
why is this happening to me?
i thought these type of things only happened to women over the age of 40?
i would just really like to be healthy and normal and not have to worry.
i feel like im at the hospital every couple of months. :\

my surgery on tuesday went well.
the cyst was even more destructive than expected so they had to remove my whole left ovary as well.
on a very happy note: the cyst was benign. :)
i got home from the hospital on friday.
i am now highly medicated on vicodin and motrin. and let me tell you, i am not enjoying myself. home recovery blows. i am in the worst pain of my life and the vicodin makes me sick to my stomach. i cant really walk more than a few feet so showering is out of the question. its been a week now. im really starting to smell....
despite my mood, i really am grateful that im okay. so i should probably shut up. :\

so remember that ovarian cyst i had? well turns out it didnt go away and it is now larger than a football. :\ so now i gotta have surgery quick-style because they are afraid it might be cancerous. and im really scared. so if any of you out there still care about me, make me feel better because i feel like shit. :(

he's cute!

my baby was born on tuesday.
he is very good looking.

aww.

awesome= being 9.5 months pregnant on thanksgiving. i ate like 5 servings of everything.

crappy= i have quite possibly the worst cold ever and i cant take anything for it.

scary= i could go into labor at any moment.

*found out that im having a boy.
*found out that i have an ovarian cyst the size of a grapefruit.
*saw the cure play.
*gained 20 more pounds.
*got hideous stretchmarks.
*took out my nose ring.
*one of my cats and all of my fish died.

more recently:
*i got a nice shot in the ass this morning.
*im still not married.
*as of tomorrow i will be 8 months pregnant. yikes!

i want a grilled cheese.........

"say that im hot and that i look really good naked" - victor.

update:
on friday i layed in my bed ALL day till about 7 PM. then i went shopping for pants because my size 4's/6's just arent cutting it anymore with my fat ass.

on saturday judy and i went to MOCA and on the way we stopped at the citadel outlets and they totally suck so dont go ever go there. after that we went to melrose to shop but i didnt buy anything because im too fat to be allowed to wear cute clothes. and thennnn we ate at johnny rockets and it wasnt very good.

yesterday was blah so whatever.

and today will more than likely be blah as well.

UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHDLSKFLKSDLJRTSOUDTJJDGKJDFJGYOITFDHLDFKUT6IOERUTJERUE50967809UYIPDFSHKGLTDLYUJI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im more recent news:
*victor and i celebrated our 8 month anniversary. (im not sure if those count once youre engaged....)
*today i woke up with a sunburned face. except it cant be a sunburn because im pretty sure you cant get those from sleeping. it really looks like a sunburn...its probably one of those weird pregnant lady discoloration things that happens. meh.
*the season finale of the OC was too intense and i wanted to die.
*the season finale of friends was awesome/sad and my mom cried.
*i ate ice cream for dinner and i kinda feel like im gonna throw up.

my wonderful fiance bought me a new bass.
but here is the cutest part:
he bought me an off-white one with a red tortoise-shell pickguard.
which is the same color scheme as the bass my shithead ex boyfriend stole from me nearly a year ago.
i am so very happy.
i was crushed when that bass was stolen from me because i got it as a christmas present from my parents when i was 12, and it was my first bass so it had sentimental value.
now i have an even better replacement:)
its fancier too!
eeeeeeeeee!

im bored.
and im eating cake.
i can eat as much cake as i want now.
i think ill have another slice.
i threw up a half hour ago anyways.

we went to see morrissey last night.
im not a fan of that tool but it was something to do.
victor had fun so im glad for him.
there were too many god damned greasers though.

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i got an engagement ring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today is my birthday.

today is a new day.
a day filled with nausea, bloating, bitching, and moaning.
and of course KILL BILL VOL.2
i realized i cant go to the movies at night anymore, or do anything at night for that matter due to my severe case of "night-time" sickness and the fact that i cant keep my eyes open any later than 9 o' clock.
oh well.

anyways, thank you to everyone who congradulated me on my last post. and as far as the negative comments, i figured id get a ton of those seeing as how the few enemies i have are extremely immature and go out of their way to put me down any chance that they get. but im used to it so i dont care. as Christina (Xtina) once said, "it makes me that much stronger". haha.

im gonna be a mommy!

buy me stuff.

i have bad gas :(

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but i love mandy..... :( :( :(

today is going to be a good day.
im house sitting for a girl i work with.
shes paying me 40 bucks to feed her animals for 1.5 days.
andddddddddd she said i have access to all her food/beer/movies/everything.
but most importantly, i get to have hot sex with my lover without disturbance.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhhhhh.
im such a bro.

andddddddddddddddd its payyyyyyyyyy dayyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!
no more being poor.
i cant live off another single god damned frozen burrito from ralphs.

the world of marilyn just keeps getting more intense.

ill explain later.